A year has gone by...

helo all...yeah i know, tis post is abit late..normally this kind of post will be posted in d early of d year...hehehehe...but well, its still january so its still considered early right?!..=)

so nwey, another year has gone by & i never knew hw fast time flies...this year has been another eventful year for me...well, lots of things wether it is good or bad has tot me a lesson or two...it also help me to learn & to change sum prospective of life...i guess tat is wat they say d process of growing up into wat God wants you to be...

but over all, i do thank Him for sending me help along the way went things gets tough...i wont be where i am nw if nt for those who handed a helping hand..God aso have been really good by giving me his strenght to go thru it...He was d one who saw me thru it all...

tis year, as d new year began, i dont have much of a new year resolution becos i gv up doin them long time ago..its becos i ended up never fulfilling them so its no piont doin it aso right?...ehehehe...i aso learn nt to plan my own things for my life as im nt the author of my life...my life is nt my own to liuve the way i wan them to live...i knw sumhw deep inside me tat God has a plan for my life & i trust He will finish wat he has started in me...my prayer is tat im walking in His direction no matter hw tough the road can be becos i knw i have great frens & sisters-in-christ who will stand by me..& nt forgetiing a BIG God who will meet all my need!

Dark Times

Every one got their own trials and dark times in their life. During those times, you will feel tat all hope is lost and you are walking thru a dark tunnel where there is no way out. The worse thing is that you are going thru it alone…or at least that is how you feel…outwardly, you look as normal, but inwardly you r even struggling to comprehend what is going on and you even try your very best to believe everything that is going on…you don’t even believe in yourself in making any decision anymore because you feel as if you r walking in a bad dream n one day you will wake up a realized it is all a dream…or your state of mind make u believe that this is not happen to you but it is happening to others…in another words, you r living in denial…

That is just a bit on how I felt when I got the news about my mum’s tumor on the 9-10-07…it was on a Tuesday night when I got a frantic call from mom saying that she has to get admitted to General Hospital Malacca…ok, before I go further, let me brief you on how mom ended up in the hospital…and how my worse ordeal began…

Mom have been having speech problem for almost a year this year (2007). She began to stammer at first and gradually it became worse for her to even get one sentence out. I brought her to d local government doctor when I came back for my breaks. The doctors all told her that she has d symptoms of stress (during that time, mom was working in Salvation Army Boy’s Orphanage) and just gave her some vitamin supplement to take. After taking it about 6 months, her condition not only didn’t improve but instead it became worse. Then one day, around the month of September, she called me up (I was up in KL then) and cried over the phone. Apparently she is driving from Bukit Serindit after her exercise and all of the sudden her right side became numb and she couldn’t even moved a finger (she was driving then). So she stopped the car at the side of the road and tried to take out the car key, but she couldn’t even do that. She got panic and called me immediately. As I was talking to her, all of the numbness just disappears just the same way it came. So I just brush it off n assure her that it is probably nothing although that time I was really worried and frustrated because I don’t know what is wrong with her. I told her also that I will be back that weekend and we will go and see the doctor again.

So when I came back that week, we went to not only Peringgit Jaya clinic but also Ayer Keroh clinic as the first doctor just brush off mom as having low blood and stress symptoms. I even requested for the doctor to give mom a reference letter for a CAT scan as I was suspecting she is having a mild stroke due to her symptoms. But the doctor instead refuses and scolded us. Both doctors in both clinic told mom the same thing and they keep cutting mom, not giving her the chance to speak about her symptoms. So in the end, we just have to go back with those vitamin supplements that are given again. But as days go by and I was tied down with my schoolwork up in KL so mom’s condition was pushed out of my mind. But as her symptoms got worse, my uncle insisted that she goes to see a private doctor. So mom went to see Dr. Pang (my family doctor) and that happen on Tuesday evening (9-10-07). After seeing mom’s symptoms, Dr Pang immediately called my uncle and ask him to get mom admitted to the hospital as he was suspecting that mom had a mild stroke. He even wrote a reference letter requesting for a CAT scan to be done. Thank God that my uncle is in Malacca and I have my 2^nd bro still in Malacca.

That’s when mom called me up and told me that she needed to be admitted and that she needed me to come back that night itself. But I couldn’t as it was around 8pm when I got her call and I still needed to get permission from my coordinator and college to go back. So I tried calling my coordinator but failed because he switches off his hp and it was during the time to break fast for the Muslim. So I didn’t have a choice but wait till tomorrow morning. That night I couldn’t sleep at all and around 2am, mom called me and told that a neurosurgeon came and see her. He told her that she has a tumor on her left brain and it is quite big. When she told me that, something inside me just snap and I couldn’t believe it till my bro called me up and told me. I mean, my family means a world to me and getting such news, well, I didn’t take it very well. It is a huge different when such things happen to your own family and when you are there to support your friends who is going thru the very same thing.

The next morning, I went to see my coordinator but he told me I needed to see my principal. My principal only allowed me to be back for one day (that is Wednesday) and that I needed to be back to college for my class on Thursday. My Raya break was starting on Friday for one week. So on Wednesday, Audrey was so kind to drive me back all the way to Malacca. I’m entirely grateful to God for blessing me with such a wonderful sister and friend. We went straight to the hospital and see mom. The next day, at 5am, I headed back to KL with Audrey again just for my class before heading back to Malacca the very same day. I was exhausted physically and it was only by God’s strength that I was able to go thru all this.

will post abt hw God c me thru all in my other post...till then..stay tuned!

God's Promises & His Word...

HANDY LITTLE CHART
God's positive answer for every situations:

a)What YOU SAY
b)What GOD SAYS
c)BIBLE VERSES

You say: 'It's impossible'
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: 'I'm too tired'
God says: I will give you rest
(Matthew 11:28-30)

You say: 'Nobody really loves me'
God says: I love you
(John 3:1 6 & John3:34 )

You say: 'I can't go on'
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: 'I can't figure things out'
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5- 6)

You say: 'I can't do it'
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: 'I'm not able'
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: 'It's not worth it'
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28 )

You say: 'I can't forgive myself'
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: 'I can't manage'
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: 'I'm afraid'
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: 'I'm always worried and frustrated'
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: 'I'm not smart enough'
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: 'I feel all alone'
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

PASS THIS ON. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO MAY BE IN NEED
God determines who walks into your life....it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'
Keep people in your circle that are doing more than you so you will never become complacent and you will always strive for more
'Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle'

My Wonderful Attorney,Jesus...pls read!its beautiful!

I hope you enjoy this as much as I did. Truly beautiful!

My Attorney (this is beautiful)
After living what I felt was a "decent" life, my time on earth came to the end. The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting room of what I thought to be a courthouse. The doors opened and I was instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table. As I looked around I saw the "prosecutor."

He was a villainous looking gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen. I sat down and looked to my left and there sat My Attorney, a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed so familiar to me, I felt I knew Him.

The corner door flew open and there appeared the Judge in full flowing robes. He commanded an awesome presence as He moved across the room. I couldn't take my eyes off of Him. As He took His seat behind the bench, He said, "Let us begin."

The prosecutor rose and said, "My name is Satan and I am here to show you why this man belongs in hell." He proceeded to tell of lies I told, things I stole, and in the past when I cheated others. Satan told of other horrible perversions once in my life and the more he spoke, the further down in my seat I sank. I was so embarrassed, I couldn't look at anyone, even my own Attorney, as the Devil told of sins even I completely forgotten about. As upset as I was at Satan for telling all these things about me, I was equally upset at My Attorney who sat there silently not offering any form of defense at all. I know I was guilty of those things, but I did some good in my life - couldn't that at least equal out part of the harm I'd done? Satan finished with a fury and said, "This man belongs in hell, he is guilty of all I have charged and there is not a person who can prove otherwise."

When it was His turn, My Attorney first asked if He might approach the bench. The Judge allowed this over the strong objection of Satan, and beckoned Him to come forward. As He got up and started walking, I was able to see Him in His full splendor and majesty. I realized why He seemed so familiar; this was Jesus representing me, my Lord and my Savior. He stopped at the bench and softly said to the Judge, "Hi, Dad," then He turned to address the court. "Satan was correct in saying this man sinned, I won't deny any of these allegations. And, yes, the wage of sin is death, and this man deserves to be punished."

Jesus took a deep breath and turned to His Father with outstretched arms and proclaimed, "However, I died on the cross so this person might have eternal life and he accepted Me as his Savior, so he is Mine." My Lord continued with, "His name is written in the Book of Life and no one can snatch him from Me Satan still does not understand yet. This man is not to be given justice, but rather mercy."

As Jesus sat down, He quietly paused, looked at His Father and said,"There is nothing else that needs to be done. I've done it all." The Judge lifted His mighty hand and slammed the gavel down. The following words bellowed from His lips... "This man is free The penalty for him was already paid in full. Case dismissed" As my Lord led me away, I could hear Satan ranting and raving, "I won't give up, I will win the next one." I asked Jesus as He gave me my instructions where to go next, "Have you ever lost a case?" Christ lovingly smiled and said, "Everyone that comes to Me and asked Me to represent them, received the same verdict as you, "PAID IN FULL."

A Mother's Love....so touching....

~EIGHT LIES OF A MOTHER~

1. The story began when I was a child;
I was born as a son of a poor family.
Even for eating, we often got lack of food.
Whenever the time for eating, mother often gave me her portion of rice.
While she was removing her rice into my bowl,
she would say "Eat this rice, son. I'm not hungry".
That was Mother's First Lie


2.When I was getting to grow up,
the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river near our house,
she hoped that from the fishes she got,
she could gave me a little bit nutritious food for my growth.
After fishing, she would cook the fishes to be a fresh fish soup,
which raised my appetite. While I was eating the soup,
mother would sit beside me and eat the rest meat of fish,
which was still on the bone of the fish I ate.
My heart was touched when I saw it.
I then used my chopstick and gave the other fish to her.
But she immediately refused it and said "Eat this fish, son.
I don't really like fish."
That was Mother's Second Lie.

3.Then, when I was in Junior High School,
to fund my study,
mother went to an economic enterprise to bring some used-matches boxes that would be stuck in.
It gave her some money for covering our needs.
As the winter came,
I woke up from my sleep and looked at my mother who was still awoke,
supported by a little candlelight and within her perseverance she continued
the work of sticking some used-matches box.
I said, "Mother, go to sleep, it's late,
tomorrow morning you still have to go for work.
" Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep,
dear. I'm not tired."
That was Mother's Third Lie.

4.At the time of final term,
mother asked for a leave from her work in order to accompany me.
While the daytime was coming and the heat of the sun was starting to shine,
the strong and persevering mother
waited for me under the heat of the sun's shine for several hours.
As the bell rang, which indicated that the final exam had finished,
mother immediately welcomed me and poured me a glass of tea
that she had prepared before in a cold bottle.
The very thick tea was not as thick as my mother's love,
which was much thicker. Seeing my mother covering with perspiration,
I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too.
Mother said "Drink, son. I'm not thirsty!".
That was Mother's Fourth Lie.

5.After the death of my father because of illness,
my poor mother had to play her role as a single parent.
By held on her former job, she had to fund our needs alone.
Our family's life was more complicated. No days without sufferance.
Seeing our family's condition that was getting worse,
there was a nice uncle who lived near my house came to help us,
either in a big problem and a small problem.
Our other neighbors who lived next to us saw that our family's life was so unfortunate,
they often advised my mother to marry again. But mother,
who was stubborn, didn't care to their advice,
she said "I don't need love."
That was Mother's Fifth Lie.

6.After I had finished my study and then got a job,
it was the time for my old mother to retire.
But she didn't want to; she was sincere to go to the marketplace every morning,
just to sell some vegetable for fulfilling her needs.
I, who worked in the other city, often sent her some money to help her in fulfilling her needs,
but she was stubborn for not accepting the money.
She even sent the money back to me.
She said "I have enough money."
That was Mother's Sixth Lie.

7. After graduated from Bachelor Degree,
I then continued my study to Master Degree.
I took the degree, which was funded by a company through a scholarship program,
from a famous University in America.
I finally worked in the company. Within a quite high salary,
I intended to take my mother to enjoy her life in America.
But my lovely mother didn't want to bother her son,
she said to me "I'm not used to."
That was Mother's Seventh Lie.

8.After entering her old age,
mother got a flank cancer and had to be hospitalized.
I, who lived in miles away and across the ocean,
directly went home to visit my dearest mother.
She lied down in weakness on her bed after having an operation.
Mother, who looked so old, was staring at me in deep yearn.
She tried to spread her smile on her face;
even it looked so stiff because of the disease she held out.
It was clear enough to see how the disease broke my mother's body,
thus she looked so weak and thin.
I stared at my mother within tears flowing on my face.
My heart was hurt, so hurt, seeing my mother on that condition.
But mother, with her strength, said "Don't cry, my dear.
I'm not in pain."
That was Mother's Eight Lie.


After saying her eighth lie, She closed her eyes forever!

Jesus VS Satan

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation.
Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden,
and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)

'Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive,
(well nearly everybody down there).
I set traps, I used the baits of temptation,
I know well what each one of them can't resist.
I nearly caught them all!' (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)

'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.
and He was praying to God the Father.

Satan answered 'Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!'

'll make them divorce after they have married
so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established
'the family' (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16)



I will make them hate each other and abuse each other,
make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14)

I will teach them to make weapons and bombs,
so they kill each other


'I am really going to have fun!'

'And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?'
Jesus asked. And continued praying

'Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever'
'Lord by all respect, it's their decision' (I Jn 3: 8-10)

'How much do you want for all of them?' Jesus asked.


'Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good.
Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you?
Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and even denying you.'
'What's more, they love me a lot' (Mt 24: 10-13)

'You don't want these people!!'

'How much?' Jesus asked again

Satan looked at him with a nasty face

'All your tears and all your blood,
all the pain of the entire world, all together' (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)

Jesus said...'DONE'

'and He paid the price' (II Cor 5: 21)

How terrible it is that people don't seek for God,
and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell!


How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies
and we never seek the Bible

How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven,
thinking they can get there without having to believe,
without loving God above all things,
or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God.

It is terrible how some people can say 'I believe in God'
but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God)
(II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)

Don't you think it's pathetic how they send
each other thousands of jokes by email,
so they spread like plagues.

But when it's about the Lord's messages,
we think about it twice before we share them;
and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message


Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene,
vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet
that even many people would desire to get into the screen.

But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus
in the schools, places of work
self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20)

Even after knowing what He did for us.
Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin.
that we may be forgiven
and know Him in His glory with the Father.

Doesn't it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight
on Sabbath in the Church,
worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy,
for one more day to live etc.

But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3: 1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)

Does this seem just to you?

Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail
to all your contacts on the Web,
It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this
Don't let him get through with his plans!

Stop worrying what the others may think about you
It is time to worry about what 'God thinks about you'

Please brother and sister, pass it on?
'I already did it'

May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)

Never Doubt the word of God...How True it is...

Never doubt the Word of God!!!

Make a personal reflection about this. Very interesting, read until the end...It is written in the Bible (Galatians 6:7):" Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.

Here are some men and women who mocked God:

JOHN LENNON:Some years before during his interview with an American Magazine, he said:"Christianity will end, it will disappear. I do not have to argue about that. I am certain. Jesus was ok, but his subjects were too simple, Today we are more famous than Him" (1966)".Lennon, after saying that the Beatles were more famous than Jesus Christ,was shot six times.

TANCREDO NEVES:During the Presidential campaign, he said if he got 500 votes from his party, not even God would remove him from Presidency. Sure he got the votes, buthe got sick a day before being made President, then he died.


THE MAN WHO BUILT TITANIC:After the construction of Titanic, a reporter asked him how safe the Titanic would be. With an ironic tone he said: "Not even God can sink it"

The result: I think you all know what happened to the Titanic.

MARILYN MONROE:She was visited by Billy Graham during a presentation of a show. He is a preacher and Evangelist and the Spirit of God had sent him to preach to her.After hearing what the Preacher had to say, she said: "I don't need your Jesus" A week later, she was found dead in her apartment.

BON SCOTT:The ex-vocalist of the AC/DC. On one of his 1979 songs he sang:"Don´t stop me, I´m going down all the way, wow the highway to hell". On the 19th of February 1980, Bon Scott was found dead, he had been choked by his vomit.

CAMPINAS/SP IN 2005In Campinas, a group of friends, drunk, went to pick up a friend.. The mother accompanied her to the car and was so worried about the drunkenness of herfriends and she said to the daughter - holding her hand, who was already seated in the car: "MY DAUGHTER, GO WITH GOD AND MAY HE PROTECT YOU",

She responded: ONLY IF HE (GOD) TRAVELS IN THE BOOT, COZ INSIDE HERE IT'S ALREADY FULL"

Hours later, news came by that they had been involved in a fatal accident, everyone had died, the car could not be recognized what type of car it had been,
but surprisingly, the boot was intact. The police said there was no way the boot could have remained intact. To their surprise, inside the boot was a crate of eggs, none was broken..

Many more important people have forgotten that there is no other name that was given so much authority as the name of Jesus. Many have died, but only Jesus\u003cbr\>died and rose again, and he is still alive. JESUS!!!\

P.S: If it was a joke, you could have sent it to everyone. So are you going to have courage to send this?.I have done my part, Jesus said "If you get embarrassed about me, I will also get embarrassed about you before my father What benefit does it have, if a man gains the whole world but loses his soul?What can man give in exchange of his soul? (Mathew 16:26).