Thank U's...

this is a long overdue thank u note tat i shud have written long time ago...its a post to thank wonderful ppl who God blessed me wif during my mum's sickness..all this happen abt 6 months ago...if u had read my blog, u wud have read a long written post abt mum's sickness & this is a continuation from it..=)

first of all,i better start my thank you note or else i wudnt finish it...i shall keep it short & sweet..*i hope*

*God, my wonderful Father In Heaven * - thanks for sending wonderful frens to help along the way..thanks for d strength to go thru it all..thanks for blessing me wif wonderful results too!thanks for looking into d smallest details as well as d major detail!..thanks for seeing mum thru d operation as well as all d details!love u so much DAD!

*Audrey Tan * - thanks for driving up & down all d way from KL & malacca. i knw its really tiring for u n yet u didnt complain at all & insisted summore..*paiseh*..u even make sure i had my proper meals...u even paid all d tol n yet refuses my insistence of paying u back...u r indeed one in a million fren & sister! i love u so much!

*Anna Teoh & Tan Sue Ern* - thanks for being such a wonderful blessing & a ever loving childhood frens of mine...u bothnvr fail to encourage me during those times..thanks for beliving in me & be my pillar of strenght wen i felt like giving up!ur emails & smses nvr fail to encourage me =)..thank God for ur life!thanks for being such a wonderful sisters in christ to me!u both r a great blessing & an angel send by GOD!

* Cheryl Tan* - thank u dear sis for ur concern for my fam although u r so far away in china..at times i jus wish u r right here back in mlc but yet u even u r in china, u still keeping in touch wif me..asking me hws things...im entirely grateful for tat..

*Tan Family (Audrey's fam)* - thanks so much for being such a great blessing to me from the start...im entirely grateful for every help, love & support tat is given to me..ur prayers & word of encouragement alwiz lift me up!..thank u so much!

* Cathy & Eunice* - thank God for ur life...u have indeed been a great blessing to me...in small & big ways...u alwiz so lighted up wen u c me wen im back in mlc n tat makes me feel great!keep shinning for HIM!Love U both!

* Carene*- my dear wonderful sister...though u r so far away in Australia, but yet, u still keep in touch wif me & still wanting to knw hw is things goin on wif me..i thank God for bringing u into my life as u have been a wonderful angel!

* CLA church members* - thanks for ur constant prayer & supports beside offering ur hand to help in many ways!ur help is greatly appreciated!

* Harvest Generation church members * - thanks for d constant concern, prayer & support though i jus onli join this wonderful church!indeed u guys have been a great blessing!Thank U!

* Rachel, Mary & Daryl* - thanks for standing by me all d way..u guys r d best & i love u all!muaks! ..u guys r the best skool frens tat i cud ever wish for!

* my wondeful relatives*- thanks for helping out in small & big ways...ur supports & care is much appreciated!

* CLA Young Adults Cell* - thanks for supporting me in prayer & coming to my aid once u guys heard this news...im entirely grateful to be a part of this great cell!

As for those i have missed out, pls forgive me...pls dont take it personally..i really do appreciate each & every1 of u tat came n help out..may God bless u as u have been a great blessing to me & my fam!

What Do U Tink?

Jus a few months ago, i got a questionair from a fren which i find kind of interesting..so i decided to post it to sum of my other frens to c wat r their replies..wen i gt it, i was surprised at some of d replies..but nwey, i leave it to u guys to read & c weather u agree o nt...so here is their replies:-

anna the childhood fren:

okie here it is... my reply.. hehe...kinda sleepy so i reply kinda fast one ya.. bear in mind its just my personal opinion, i may not know u well enough to write the answer that is correct about u... ehehhe

God bless!! =)

1. Quiet Loud?
=>
erm.. Quiet is not the opposite of Loud lah.
you're not quiet, and not loud either. depends on situation lah.

2. Short Tall?
=>
short!! hahaha same as me =P

3. Weird Original:
=> just yourself

4. Nice Mean:
=> mostly nice to everyone & animals also =) *woof woof*

5. Friendly Selfish:
=> friendly (btw, friendly & selfish are not opposite words also!!)

6. Normal 'Special':
=>
normal, which is a good thing!
but special in God's sight.

7. Smart Stupid:
=> smart

8. Boring Fun:
=> not too extreme

9. Attractive Unattractive:
=> attractive & easily approachable


DO YOU THINK I'M...
1. A psycho?:

=> no la.. but if you need to see psychologist can consult me hehehhe

2. A nerd?:

=> no

3. Ghetto?:

=> no

4. Two-faced?: => every single person in this world has many faces, for different situations & places..

5. Obnoxious?:

=> no

6. Drug Addict?:

=> haha drug addict doctor? no way! ( Editor note: Im nt a doctor but a pharmacy asst)

7. Mature?:

=> quite, and courageous.

8. Moody?:

=> maybe, i dunno. dont see u often enough to be able to judge.

9. Alcoholic?

=> no, at least i think so

10. Lovable?: => "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son......"

JUST SOME RANDOM QUESTIONS
1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?:

=> strong woman in God (i like this answer - me again, the editor)

2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: => ask God
(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?: => ask God
3. When is my birthday?:

=> soon ;) i know, you know, we know. (note: it was in d month of january, incase sum of u r wondering)

4. What was your first impression of me?:

=> cant remember

5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?:

=> none

6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?:

=> no

7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?:

=> adrienne

8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: => don think so
what was it? => tell u already no bad dream loh...

9. If u could give me anything...what would it be?:

=> more doggies!! and cats too!

10. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?:

=> all the promises u ever need, God has already made to you ;P

11. If you could have anything that I have what would it be?:

=> your boldness in talking to new people?

Cathy the junior =)

Question 1

AM I??

1. Quiet Loud?
=> loud!!

2. Short Tall?
=> hehe short...

3. Weird Original:
=> original @.@

4. Nice Mean:
=> nice :)

5. Friendly Selfish:
=> friendly

6. Normal 'Special':
=>special!

7. Smart Stupid:
=> i think your really smart

8. Boring Fun:
=>FUN!

9. Attractive Unattractive:
=> attractive

DO YOU THINK I'M...
1. A psycho?:

=>noo

2. A nerd?:

=>hahaha far from tht

3. Ghetto?:

=>wats ghetto?? (neither do i knw d meaning)

4. Two-faced?:

=> definetly not

5. Obnoxious?:

=>ahahhahaha NO

6. Drug Addict?:

=>the last thing you would ever be

no again

7. Mature?:

=> yes

8. Moody?:

=>sometimes...

9. Alcoholic?

=> BAHAHAHHAHAA.

no

10. Lovable?: => YES!!!

JUST SOME QUESTIONS
1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?:

=> a doctor? (wow, high ambition & expectation)

2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: => of course!
(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?: => hmm tht i hav no idea

3. When is my birthday?:

=> january

4. What was your first impression of me?:

=>fun and bubbly

5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?:

=>no song sorry

6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?:

=>err.... no

7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?:

=>errr.....sorry i hav no idea

8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: =>no dreams
what was it? =>

9. If u could give me anything...what would it be?:

=>my friendship! which i already hav

10. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?:

=>hmm anything u want!

11. If you could have anything that I have what would it be?:

=>i already hav u as my fren! thts all iwant frm u!

PERSONAL(OPPOSITE SEX).. (but u can fill it anyway :P)

1. If we spent a day together.where would we go and what would we do?:

=>we would go to the....movies!

2. If u could describe me in one word...what would that word be? :

=> lovable, funny, makes me happy. sorry you are impossible o describe in one word. cause u are more than tht!!

3. (a)Do u think u would have a chance with me? :

=>...no cuz ur no gay.... hahahahha

4.If you could change anything about me what would it be? :

=>im good wit the way u are..

this is jus a snip on sum of the answers (or d onli answers i gt from lots of emails i send)...nwey, do let me knw wat u tink..weather u agreed on d answers given o u disagreed on it..open comment is accepted..

One of the Greatest Miracle!

Please make time and read this startling story. It's real. Our God reigns in deed and in truth.

A Muslim man in Egypt killed his wife because she was reading the Bible and then buried her with their infant baby and 8-year old daughter. The girls were buried alive! He then reported to the police that an uncle killed the kids. 15 days later, another family member died. When they went to bury him, they found the 2 little girls under the sand -ALIVE !

The country is outraged over the incident, and the man will be executed. The older girl was asked how she had survived. 'A man wearing shiny white clothes, with bleeding wounds in his hands, came every day to feed us. He woke up my mom so she could nurse my sister,' she said. She was interviewed on Egyptian national TV, by availed Muslim woman news anchor. She said on public TV, '

This was none other than Jesus, because nobody else does things like this!' Muslims believe Isa (Jesus) would do this, but the wounds mean He really was crucified, and it's clear also that He is alive! But, it's also clear that the child could not make up a story like this, and there is no way these children could have survived without a true miracle. Muslim leaders are going to have a hard time to figure out what to do with this, and the popularity of the Passion movie doesn't help! With Egypt at the centre of the media and education in the Middle East , you can be sure this story will spread. Jesus Christ is still turning the world upside down! Please let this story be shared. The Lord says, 'I will bless the person who puts his trust in me. 'Jeremiah 17

life is short & unpredictable....

recently, my goduncle, age 52,jus passed away...he passed away due to a bad stroke tat puts him into a coma for 2days...

his death is really a shock to me as i onli gt the news tat he was admitted to the hospital on sat nite...i was planning to c him in d hospital on my lunch break on mon but i was too late by a few hours...he has passed away on 12.15am on mon...

wen mum called me informing abt his death, i cudn belived it...he look healthy since the last time i saw him & he has no records of hypertension..but according to his mother(my babysitter), he did complain of a few headache but he nvr wen to the doc to check it out...if he wud have done tat, mayb his life will b prolonged...

wen i heard tat, it hit me hard tat we shudnt take for granted our life...the very fact tat im still breathing here & typing this blog is a blessing from God..constantly, wen the road gts tough, we tend to entertain tots tat is negative & ended up lossing hope...but there is more to life of we pressed on...also, wen our body started to show signs & symptoms of abnormalities, its better to go & gt it check..like the saying goes, "prevention is better than cure"....tat goes the same wif me as i do nt like to c d doc unless im really, really sick...i alwiz brush it off as nothg...tats wat my goduncle did & look wat happen to him...

so, i tink we shud live our life as if as tat day is or final day...becos in d end, u will regret for nt being able to achive ur best in life....

turning 21..

Turning 21 is alwiz considered as a turning point in one' s life...as for me personally, it doesnt make much of a different though to ppl, it might change the way i tink mayb...

but nwey,i thank God for allowing me to live long enuf to this stage...i did have a wonderful bufday celebration by my wonderful frens....nt to mention those wonderful suprises too...

now tat im alreadi 21, i guess most ppl wud think tat i alreadi gt my silver key to freedom..yes its half true but nvertheless, as u r goin up in age, there is more responsibility tat cums together wif it...it is nt all play n no work..at times i do wonder wether im prepared enuf to carry those expectations & resposibility but i guess tat is hw i grow...i learnt from my mistakes tat i make along the way...

i might make mistakes tat i wud regret but one thing i knw for sure..God is alwiz there wif me every step of the way as long as i allow Him to be & ask HIm to be the author of my life...i have to constantly remind myself wen my fleshly desires wan to go against wat God wans me to do...i hope tat i wud be able to please God & tat i wud hear Him say tat im a faithful servant of HIs!

A year has gone by...

helo all...yeah i know, tis post is abit late..normally this kind of post will be posted in d early of d year...hehehehe...but well, its still january so its still considered early right?!..=)

so nwey, another year has gone by & i never knew hw fast time flies...this year has been another eventful year for me...well, lots of things wether it is good or bad has tot me a lesson or two...it also help me to learn & to change sum prospective of life...i guess tat is wat they say d process of growing up into wat God wants you to be...

but over all, i do thank Him for sending me help along the way went things gets tough...i wont be where i am nw if nt for those who handed a helping hand..God aso have been really good by giving me his strenght to go thru it...He was d one who saw me thru it all...

tis year, as d new year began, i dont have much of a new year resolution becos i gv up doin them long time ago..its becos i ended up never fulfilling them so its no piont doin it aso right?...ehehehe...i aso learn nt to plan my own things for my life as im nt the author of my life...my life is nt my own to liuve the way i wan them to live...i knw sumhw deep inside me tat God has a plan for my life & i trust He will finish wat he has started in me...my prayer is tat im walking in His direction no matter hw tough the road can be becos i knw i have great frens & sisters-in-christ who will stand by me..& nt forgetiing a BIG God who will meet all my need!

Dark Times

Every one got their own trials and dark times in their life. During those times, you will feel tat all hope is lost and you are walking thru a dark tunnel where there is no way out. The worse thing is that you are going thru it alone…or at least that is how you feel…outwardly, you look as normal, but inwardly you r even struggling to comprehend what is going on and you even try your very best to believe everything that is going on…you don’t even believe in yourself in making any decision anymore because you feel as if you r walking in a bad dream n one day you will wake up a realized it is all a dream…or your state of mind make u believe that this is not happen to you but it is happening to others…in another words, you r living in denial…

That is just a bit on how I felt when I got the news about my mum’s tumor on the 9-10-07…it was on a Tuesday night when I got a frantic call from mom saying that she has to get admitted to General Hospital Malacca…ok, before I go further, let me brief you on how mom ended up in the hospital…and how my worse ordeal began…

Mom have been having speech problem for almost a year this year (2007). She began to stammer at first and gradually it became worse for her to even get one sentence out. I brought her to d local government doctor when I came back for my breaks. The doctors all told her that she has d symptoms of stress (during that time, mom was working in Salvation Army Boy’s Orphanage) and just gave her some vitamin supplement to take. After taking it about 6 months, her condition not only didn’t improve but instead it became worse. Then one day, around the month of September, she called me up (I was up in KL then) and cried over the phone. Apparently she is driving from Bukit Serindit after her exercise and all of the sudden her right side became numb and she couldn’t even moved a finger (she was driving then). So she stopped the car at the side of the road and tried to take out the car key, but she couldn’t even do that. She got panic and called me immediately. As I was talking to her, all of the numbness just disappears just the same way it came. So I just brush it off n assure her that it is probably nothing although that time I was really worried and frustrated because I don’t know what is wrong with her. I told her also that I will be back that weekend and we will go and see the doctor again.

So when I came back that week, we went to not only Peringgit Jaya clinic but also Ayer Keroh clinic as the first doctor just brush off mom as having low blood and stress symptoms. I even requested for the doctor to give mom a reference letter for a CAT scan as I was suspecting she is having a mild stroke due to her symptoms. But the doctor instead refuses and scolded us. Both doctors in both clinic told mom the same thing and they keep cutting mom, not giving her the chance to speak about her symptoms. So in the end, we just have to go back with those vitamin supplements that are given again. But as days go by and I was tied down with my schoolwork up in KL so mom’s condition was pushed out of my mind. But as her symptoms got worse, my uncle insisted that she goes to see a private doctor. So mom went to see Dr. Pang (my family doctor) and that happen on Tuesday evening (9-10-07). After seeing mom’s symptoms, Dr Pang immediately called my uncle and ask him to get mom admitted to the hospital as he was suspecting that mom had a mild stroke. He even wrote a reference letter requesting for a CAT scan to be done. Thank God that my uncle is in Malacca and I have my 2^nd bro still in Malacca.

That’s when mom called me up and told me that she needed to be admitted and that she needed me to come back that night itself. But I couldn’t as it was around 8pm when I got her call and I still needed to get permission from my coordinator and college to go back. So I tried calling my coordinator but failed because he switches off his hp and it was during the time to break fast for the Muslim. So I didn’t have a choice but wait till tomorrow morning. That night I couldn’t sleep at all and around 2am, mom called me and told that a neurosurgeon came and see her. He told her that she has a tumor on her left brain and it is quite big. When she told me that, something inside me just snap and I couldn’t believe it till my bro called me up and told me. I mean, my family means a world to me and getting such news, well, I didn’t take it very well. It is a huge different when such things happen to your own family and when you are there to support your friends who is going thru the very same thing.

The next morning, I went to see my coordinator but he told me I needed to see my principal. My principal only allowed me to be back for one day (that is Wednesday) and that I needed to be back to college for my class on Thursday. My Raya break was starting on Friday for one week. So on Wednesday, Audrey was so kind to drive me back all the way to Malacca. I’m entirely grateful to God for blessing me with such a wonderful sister and friend. We went straight to the hospital and see mom. The next day, at 5am, I headed back to KL with Audrey again just for my class before heading back to Malacca the very same day. I was exhausted physically and it was only by God’s strength that I was able to go thru all this.

will post abt hw God c me thru all in my other post...till then..stay tuned!